You just dont know how it feels like,
to see your hopes destroyed right before your eyes.
And as you watching the go,
your heart sinks.
and it bleeds.
and it hurts to the max.
Trying to get your words in.
But its killing me.
I.Just.Cant.Stop.Crying.
headache ! ):headache ! ):headache ! ):Its not getting any better.
Have you got any
idea how much it
hurts?
I've cried a million times, knowing i cant fix them back.
The
hurt is still there, sinking deeper.
I need
help, someone.
Will it be you?Held my tears hard for the day.
Didnt shed a single tear infront of anyone.
I almost broke down these few days.
I screwed everything.
Because all in my mind was just you & memories.
Its sucks.
I need those reassurance, that you never gave.
I need it. I really need it.
Its just falling apart.
I need help, please.
Save me from those hurt.
It wasnt supposed to be like that, no.
Got a damn 32/40 for chinese oral
& 29/40 for english oral.
Screwed them all.
Im depressed.
No, dont tell me, its over.
NO, NO, NO.
The hurt is killing me.
Have i really found you?
You, but without a heart.
Without feelings.
Fine, i get it.
I HAD TO BE HURT THIS WAY.
What hurts most,
is that after so much,
i still love you.
i still miss you.
i still care.
Bring those colors back to my life, someone please.
Hoping its you.Feeling better.
3 more days.
Im screwd ):
Dont wanna post much now.
Weekend okay? :D
Some photos.
English oral sucked to the max.
Im not int eh blogging mood.
Im sorry. ):
Photos promised to be postponed.
Cant seem to understand anything.Its killing me.It hurts t the maxmaxmax.Perhaps even more that i what i could take.Someone, explain to me why.Hurt . Hurt. Hurt.It wasnt meant to be like this.Its just that im fool.FOOL. FOOL. FOOL!Just when will you return.Sick of those lies.But i need them.One more fall, and thats it.It never once hurt that way.Wheres the right feeling?
Second half of the day.
It kinda of started with a quarrel ove some stuffs with
you.
Im sorry, didnt mean to piss to you off.
Cant really seem to understand why you were so agitated.
Yes, its my fault ( For some parts.)
But i really dont understand.
What has it got to do with me.
Its as thou you blame me for
her injury.
Your classmates having to climb stairs.
As thou i brought inconvenience to all.
You just dont believe me.
And
she injured her leg and has to climb up the stairs.
But what has it got to do with me?
I didnt even know her in the first place.
I dont even know how she looks like.
I didnt even know that she was injured.
And its my fault?
Fine, then blame for all you want.
Its just R-E-T-R-I-B-U-T-I-O-N.
I understand. ):
No one seems to understand the hurt caused.Its alright.
Maybe all thats telling me is that.
They mean more than i do to you.
You care more for them.
Its understandable.
I'll get by & get used to this feeling.Then went to United square.
The kiddy place :P
Felt so child-ieeeee ( I know dont have this word)
But it was total boredness.
Cant find a single thing for cousin ( One years)
Bought something in the last shop.
Finally ehhhhhhhh :D
Clothes + shoes (Dont be superstitious)
Then waited for daddy.
Homed.
Cried over many many things.
Depressed.
Yeah, perhaps, you really dont, give a damn :/Just so you know, the hurt your words can cause.
Its deep.
But
i have to live with it.
Down with fever.
Sleeeeeeeeeeep :D
Now, im alright.
Homeworks piling up :O
I've yet to touch them.
Geog test coming soon, if im not wrong.
Yes again. -.-
Ohwell, i wna drop geoggggg.
Screw it. Clara Lim's lesson was like so much better.
You leh, dont know how to teach one ><
I gonna screw maths soon.
Emaths especially.
Chap 3, i wasnt around when she taught.
Didnt manage to understand all concepts by myself.
Chap 4, drawing of graphs, Couldnt understand.
Help me, someone.
That maths pro is not beside me anymore.
I dont dare to seek help from the current partner :P
No offence (:
That's pretty much about it luh.
Going out to get some presents later.
Cousin's one year old birthday party tmr.
:O
Gonna waste another day just like that.
I need lots of help in my school work.
Tuition - not much time.
Alvin - Out most of the time.
Mommy & Daddy - Dont wna bother them.
Classmates - copying of work :B
Teachers - Like JoyLee & Miss Tham, cannot make it
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